Mike D.

Boss move.

Does my comment above sound familiar?

In my case it is depression. There is a bit a of anxiety and ADHD mixed in to keep it fun. Self-medicating with drugs/alcohol makes it difficult to go too long without causing life problems.

Although I’m currently down, I’m not having thoughts of suicide, and have not for about 4 months.

I have a huge fear of sharing those thoughts because I know I will likely get 5150 again. Hospitalization costs $$$$.

My parents are in very old now, no change there. My sister says I can reach out any time but she never responds.

I have started seeing a therapist which has been helpful in several ways, even if I skipped today’s appt.

When I was young I recall visiting my aunt in a mental institution many times. I was told she had a nervous breakdown but it wasn’t discussed beyond that.

When Reagan closed all the mental institutions she bounced around boarding houses. The first ones were terrible. Later ones were much, much better.

When I was older I found we took the same meds.

Discussion of mental illness is still avoided in my family.