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  • emmie@lemmy.mltoAsklemmy@lemmy.mlIs there any hope for me?
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    3 days ago

    Yeah well good luck with adhd at: work hard, show on time, remember that you have any work at all

    First month is always all cool and nice thanks to inhumane amount of energy but then it catches up with you and you plunge hard

    The more monotonous and routine something is the worse it gets. Same tram every day at same hour? Two weeks max before inevitable disappearance to never appear again.

    It’s like walls are closing on you and anxiety attacks start and you have to run and regain your strength to try anew somewhere else.

    Once it got so bad I almost got paranoidal psychosis because I just felt so bad so to preserve my mental health I had to disappear and barricade for half a year to recoup.

    It’s no fun standing in public and feeling like you are about to die, freaking out about it, freaking out about freaking out about it and that you are crazy, running like mad from the place that gave you this suffocating feeling